Are you a blogger? Have you ever wanted to become one, if not?
There are many reasons to become a blogger. It gives you a home on the internet that you can do anything with. It can even grow and change as you do! It can give you income – and not only one stream, either. It can simply be a way that you share your life with the world, or your voice.
Everyone has a reason for blogging – and there are as many reasons as people.
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If you are on my mailing list, you will receive 3 emails about this one. Mostly reminders – but hey, $750 is up for grabs, and you all know that I’m broker than broke right now. And I would hate to have you miss something that very well could be on your 2020 to-do list/resolution list! This sale is just so fast…blink and it’s gone.
For those curious, my catch up day was a wash – though I did catch up on some sleep. The insomnia still plagues me, so catch up week is mostly still a catch up on sleep thing. But I am getting some things done, slowly as I can, and that’s all that matters. Hopefully, this insomnia disappears soon!
Anyone else feel like January is taking a really LONG time to get over? It’s only halfway done, and I feel like two months have passed.
What did you like as a child? Or even as a younger you of any age?
Really lean into those memories. Remember how those activities made you feel, how you thought about them, the feel of whatever you touched as you went about doing that activity – really put your PresentMe into the memory.
Now here comes the not so fun part – why did you stop?
You may want to write about this in your journal, as this can definitely shake some things loose. It all depends on why. If you naturally grew out of it, that may be the most natural way to end things. But most of us didn’t grow out of our childhood activities or other activities – we lost them for other reasons.
In childhood, I used to draw by freehand copying something, say Archie. Or Scooby, or whatever I was into at the moment – or whatever I had at hand. Not trace, copy. I was pretty good at it too, apparently, because I started to get accused of tracing my pictures – and after so much of that, I just stopped. What was the point if every time I showed someone, they didn’t believe that I had done it and that I clearly must have traced it? Of course, now it just proves how good I was at that point, and makes me wonder where I could have gone with that…and I wonder if that ability is still there, just latent.
Other things fell to the wayside as well, for many different reasons; money, time, suppliers – adult excuses really. Herbalism is one of them, and with that making my own bath and body care items.
Really the only things that have carried over from childhood have been writing and photography, and sometimes even those get sporadic.
This year though, I’m going to start picking up some of the activities that I used to love and see if they still hold value for me. I’m really excited to pick up herbalism and making my own body care products again, so that seems to be a sign to me that it still is something I love.
I challenge you to do the same! What old loves are you going to rediscover in 2020?
It’s time to wrap up the year, and 2019 was one hell of a year. Mostly filled to the brim with bullshit, but hey, what’s the end of a decade for? Thank the gods that it is over!
Did Anything Go Right In 2019?
I got a new furnace. Otherwise, no – and the man is sticking it to us even now, just before the end of the year. The boyfriend has lost his food stamps and medical, for no known reason – and I’m down to $16 a month currently, for some unknown reason. And with no phone, can’t find out why and maybe fix it just yet. Always something this year to make life a little more challenging – but hey, definitely incentive to get the fuck off the state.
They really are more trouble then they are worth.
You end up jumping through more hoops than a normal person would expect, after laying down any sort of dignity you had left. Then you are beholden to them as they dole out some measly amount that you can just barely maybe survive on…but can change on a whim. And woe to the person that doesn’t follow the 400 million rules there are to these “benefits!” Never mind the fact that no one knows 1% of them, never mind ALL of them – and most of them you swear are made up literally on the spot.
Did I mention that you are treated like literal dirt this whole time? How dare you *gasp* need help?!
2010 – 2019
Honestly, not a good decade for me – at all! Lots of loss in the beginning – lost my mother in Oct of 2010. My daughter was diagnosed with autoimmune hepatitis in Jan 2011. Literally one thing after the other happened in this decade – it was a very turbulent decade. I became disabled in 2010, though I didn’t actually receive benefits till 2015. I will be very glad to see the backside of this decade, that is for sure.
I don’t think I met any of my goals at all in this decade, other than staying alive. Which is all I really can say I did. Which is actually quite the accomplishment, considering there were many a time where I was pretty sure life was trying to kill me.
Looking Forward To 2020
Fortunately, 2019 is almost behind us. And before us, all the glory that is 2020 and a new decade wrapped up in one. I have high hopes for this year, and this decade, that’s for sure. I’m not entirely sure it could be any worse than the one I just left. Really hoping to do some living and not just surviving, that’s for sure – I’m not getting any younger. Kiddo is going to be graduating high school soon – I’m running out of time quite literally.
In 2020 I am focusing on my most important value: Freedom. Without that one value, nothing else really matters all that much to me. And I’m finding already that freedom means much more than face value! I’m digging into some limiting beliefs, soul searching, doing lots of inner work – while also focusing on the obvious financial and other external definitions as well. This may carry me through the entire decade, we shall see.
Making more money is definitely one of my goals. But beyond that, I’m actually putting the time and effort into becoming financially stable with what I have right now. Yes, that means a budget – and so far, no one is happy with it but me. My boyfriend is the least happy. He’s already trying to change my mind and manipulate things to his liking, but so far, I’m holding strong. He’s even threatened not to do anything around the house! Which hey, is fine by me – do nothing, and I don’t have to give you an allowance at all. That’s money I can put elsewhere.
I have a lot of goals for the coming year, and with them, several new habits need to be instilled into me. A lot of people forget that habits make up goals and that to make goals easier, you need to come up with and get new habits. I’m about as prepared for 2020 as I can get, though I still have some planning to do to ensure that everything I can think of is covered. Of course, it’s a living document – I’ll be adding as time goes on and removing as things get accomplished.
What are your plans for 2020? Are you happy or sad that 2019 is leaving us?
My chickens are coming home to roost. And not the good kind.
Due to not really having enough to cover everything, I’ve had to rob Peter to pay Paul some months. The problem is forgetting which month you robbed Peter, so you can rob Paul to pay Peter back and all that fun stuff. It’s not easy to be poor, that’s for damn sure. Anyone who says otherwise has never been poor.
The chickens that came home to roost are unpaid balances. And the subsequent disconnection of my phone and internet right before Christmas. Which is why this post is late.
I now have to use the mobile hotspot on my cellphone to do anything, and the reason I still have a landline phone is the decided lack of service here – so frustrations abound. Of course, it’s all my fault, so I’m trying to just work with them…but I still want to throw things. Hard.
Okay, so I guess this is going to be Monday’s post instead of Friday’s, as it is now Saturday and I’m not finished with it.
Frustration, much?! *sigh*
Some things I am working on to ensure this little situation never happens again is the dreaded budget. And my budget is so tight it squeaks. My family is not going to be happy when all the little pleasures that they have been accustomed to go bye-bye. At least for a while.
But financial stability is far more important.
I already know that I’m going to have a hard time saying no because I do want my family to be happy – and this is going to be a shitty Christmas already. Like, worst Christmas I’ve had in a long time shitty. 2019 hasn’t been my year, or my daughter’s, or my boyfriend’s – but hey, 2020 is literally right around the corner!
Seriously, I had the lowest child support month ever while actually receiving child support this month. $27. WTF am I even supposed to do with that? $19 went to Christmas, $8 to my gas tank. #winning
Just got back from the food pantry this morning, which requires me to be awake at the bullshit hour of 5 am and out the door by 6. It was 5F degrees outside. So I had to get up at bullshit o’clock and go outside in bullshit weather. It was bullshit, but I can feed my family for a little longer.
Now I’m just waiting on the turkey box, so I can maybe feed them Christmas dinner on Christmas day. *sigh*
To say that I have reaped what I’ve sowed would be accurate.
Granted, it really isn’t entirely my fault, but there’s nothing I can do to change those aspects – I can only work within the realm of my own control. And who knows, maybe it IS really entirely my own fault – no one knows for sure the extent of reality that the brain creates.
So maybe every part of reality that touches me was created by one or more of my own thoughts. Scary, but interesting.
But I do know this – I haven’t reaped everything that I have already sowed yet. And I have many years of sowing left, with the average life expectancy of my family, barring any sudden terminal illness or accidents. I have sowed as much good as I have negative (I really hate the word bad for some reason) and I have the obvious chance to sow much, much more positive things for Future Me.
It would be very easy for me to get caught up in the negatives, playing the victim and being all why me? over this. But if we create our reality – wouldn’t that just be sowing MORE of this nonsense? What logical sense does that make?! We certainly do not want more of this negative stuff, that’s for sure.
Future Me would not be very happy with Present Me, that’s for damn sure.
Just like Present Me is not too happy with Past Me but knows there’s not a damn thing she can do about it. Maybe Present You isn’t happy with Past You, it’s not a very comfortable feeling, is it? What we can do from this point on is keep Future Me/You in mind when doing things with Present Me/You…what will Future Me think about this? Does this get me to where Future Me wants to be? I can’t do that, Future Me wouldn’t like it.
You know how your Mom or Dad allowed you to always use them as an excuse? Use Future Me and lay the blame squarely at their feet.
Just don’t use it as a form of avoidance. You still need to sow, just like I do – and even doing nothing is something, a choice, a form of sowing. Doing nothing is NEVER not doing anything. The difference with doing nothing is you don’t know if it sways the balance towards the positive or the negative. It’s not neutral, it goes one way or another. It’s the mystery box if you will.
You reap what you sow – what have you reaped lately? Good or negative? How has it changed you or your life? What can you do differently next time?
Now the fun begins. Everything now is an experiment, which is what it should have been before. But that’s neither here nor there. I am actually learning how to really read metrics, by you know, actually paying attention to them, and I’ve found some interesting things so far.
My “audience” if you will, is definitely on Pinterest.
At least according to what I’m reading on the metrics. So I need to figure out how to get some of them from there to here. Right now I’m sharing my blog post images on Pinterest. It’s just a start, of course, I’ll be tweaking everything as I go and learn.
What I learned before all this, was that having a beginner’s mindset is an amazing thing. It allows you to expand your knowledge base without your previous knowledge getting in the bloody way! I can push aside everything I know or think I know and learn from scratch how to do anything.
Before I adopted this mindset, I was in a very fixed state. It wasn’t just my mindset that was fixed!
This is actually unusual for me, but I believe it was a natural result of all the trauma of the last decade. It really took its toll on me. And I think it triggered something to retain as much control as possible, due to so much being out of control on the outside. Even life coaches go through some shit!
If you want a “perfect” life coach that has everything figured out and never had a bump in the road, look elsewhere. Seriously.
Life is full of bumps, and now I get to play around and experiment with different solutions to them. Not to say there won’t be moments where I won’t get all fixed again, but I will gently remind myself of what I’m trying to accomplish and that a fixed state doesn’t serve me. It doesn’t serve anyone really. Ever.
Being half French, I was always taught that problems were just solutions that hadn’t be found yet.
That’s what I’m going to be experimenting with, as well as various ways of making money. Honest ways, but money makes the world go round, and I want a shit ton of it. Not going to lie. A few trillion sounds really good right now.
There are a lot of other things I want to do as well, like learn how to knit and crochet. Crafts just seem like they might be a good fit for me, but currently, I really suck at them. I also want to find a way to help single parents, starting locally and eventually going globally.
The money is mostly to fund life, needs, and the dreams of myself and others. I love helping others achieve their dreams!
How do you experiment in your life? Is it fun for you or a chore?
Well, not entirely from scratch, but more or less so. I am redoing pretty much everything I can because a lot of the older stuff no longer fits. Why? Because I am taking a far more relaxed approach to these things now.
I’m bringing back the fun to my work and my life. Slowly. I have deleted all previous posts on this blog – don’t worry, there will be tons of value for you coming up. I will admit, I’m going to be a little more “me” focused on here because one of the best ways to teach or help others is to lead by example.
And honestly, I felt more like I was trying too hard to be all value-driven and other people-focused. I lost sight of what I do best. I took myself out of the equation, and all that was left was cold advice that was not what anyone needed.
So expect more glimpses into my actual life. Because I’m getting very real.
My Christmas spirit is shit. Seriously. And I can’t really blame the 20 some odd years of working in customer service anymore. I haven’t worked in customer service very long for almost a decade, and the customer service I did work in that time period was not Christmas related like retail…and really, the one time I worked there over the holidays, there wasn’t much for decorating or music or anything like that – it was a call center, and they liked to keep it professional.
I do get spurts of Christmas spirit though. Yesterday, I baked some delicious Pumpkin and Dark Chocolate cookies while actually listening to Christmas music.
They were out of this world delicious, though obviously I’m not an Instagram chef/baker. Who has time to make perfectly round cookies anyway?
But as it, like my energy, comes in waves, the Christmas tree isn’t even decorated! It has lights (the blue being a recent addition) and a topper.
Hopefully, this gets rectified by Christmas. Especially as I have presents to get wrapped and placed under said Christmas tree – and I can’t have it looking so sparse! Though at least it has a topper this year, that is an improvement over other years.
Today I spent most of the day in hiding. I don’t do Friday the 13th and haven’t since I became an adult. Well, since about the age of 20 or so. When I was a teen, it was always an awesome day for me, a super lucky one. According to astrology, Friday is my lucky day, and 13 is my lucky number, which always made Friday the 13th a super lucky awesome day for me – until I hit about 20. It was all downhill from there and quickly became a very unlucky, super bad day.
Why I don’t know. Maybe it’s really a lucky day, but the Universe was showing me something I didn’t want to see, so I considered it bad luck? Hard saying not knowing, but it’s hard to overcome almost 17 years of aversion to it.
Things didn’t go to plan today, but they weren’t MY plans, they were kiddos plans…so is that bad luck for me or her? Spent the non-hiding time running her and her on-again, off-again boyfriend around, trying to find a hotel that would allow under 21-year-olds to be there.
One place was rude, so I definitely will never get a hotel room from them (Best Western in Waterville, ME, I’m looking at you) and the other was polite, but wouldn’t let them stay without an “adult.” Since when do you have to be 21? What happened to being 18? Either way, we all came home and brought him with us cause the roads were getting icy due to a rainstorm – freezing rain right now.
Wasn’t safe to be out there much longer. Couldn’t even walk without sliding, it was that bad.
So now I’m home, getting some work type stuff done at 9 pm cause I want to. I don’t have to, cause it’s Friday night and late, plus I am enjoying an adult beverage of my own. But I’m doing it because I want to because I want this post to be published today…and a few other things besides.
How have you started over? Have you done so recently? Why did you or did you not?Is starting over something you do regularly?
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